I decided to be a stay at home mom 8 years ago because I wanted to personally care for my baby. I wanted to be a mother who was present in every milestone and I wanted to teach my kids the best way I know how. I knew that this is what God wanted me to do for my kids. Through the years, I have adjusted to that role. But recently, as the kids are growing up and becoming more independent, I also noticed that I have more free time on my hands unlike when they were babies and toddlers. It is also during this time that I became aware that I have to be more intentional now in my parenting.
It is easy to slip away and do my own thing in front of the computer. Before I know it, half of the day is almost over and I haven’t been able to spend time with my kids at all. If I ever do, I always give them just a few minutes then I go back to my computer. This is exactly what I don’t want. I didn’t stay at home so I can work on the computer all day, I stayed home because I wanted to be intentional in spending time with the kids, creating memories that we can all look back to.
This summer, I thank God that He has gotten my attention and allowed me to realize this before it is too late. My kids told me that I haven’t been spending much time with them, aside from study time. It is truly a wake up call for me. As if that isn’t enough, I got to read an article entitled “How to Miss a Childhood“. It is so clear that I get distracted mostly via modern technology and social networks online.
I am committing to refocusing my time. I used to open my computer around lunch time every day, but I am going to change my daily schedule and routine so I can become more efficient and limit spending time online during daytime. I also want to make sure that I don’t hold my mobile phone when I am doing something with the kids so that I can focus on what we are doing together. I want to send a message to my kids that they are important and that I am available for them. I want to spend less time online and more time offline with my kids. I want to play, to create, to read, to hug, to talk, to be silly and to be there for them.
By God’s grace, I pray that I can be the parent that my kids need me to be on this modern age.