Here is what I shared with GCF Nuvali Church last Sunday regarding motherhood…

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Let me share with you something that is close to my heart, motherhood. Since I was young, it has been my dream to raise my children hands-on.  I wanted to be able to witness their milestones, to care and nurture them, to guide and help them and develop a close relationship with them. So  when the Lord blessed me with the gift  of becoming a mother, I knew that I was ready to be a stay-at-home mom. With the support of my husband, I resigned from my full-time job and stayed home to raise the children. I believed that it was the best way of using the time that the Lord has blessed me with.

I didn’t know much about parenting or motherhood or staying home or house chores, but when the kids came, the Lord provided for all our needs, equipped me and I learned how to be a mother along the way. Through the years, I realized that it wasn’t just enough to be “there” for them or to provide for what they need, but I believed that God called us to be “intentional” parents where we saw parenting as a form of discipleship. That led us to take the road less traveled of homeschooling. It wasn’t easy. But it was worth it. As I always say, it’s not just the kids who are learning when you are homeschooling, but the parent-teacher is also learning alongside the kids. I believed that God used this to mold us, and shape us to be better disciples of Christ. We learned from one another and we had a goal together. There were days that I often would wonder if what we are doing is enough, or if they are missing out in life, but after 16 years of motherhood, and 10 years of homeschooling, we finally see some fruits.  As 3 John 1:4 days, I have no greater joy than to hear that my children are walking in the truth. And that is the goal of our homeschooling and parenting.

As a mother, there are hard days, and even harder days. But through it all, I see God’s hand and feel His leading all the time. When I worry, He reminds me to trust in Him and not on my circumstances.  When I fail, He reminds me that He is faithful and will keep His promises. He has always been enough, for all our needs, whether be it emotional, physical, social or spiritual. When uncertainties come knocking on my door, I just have to remember how faithful He has been in the past and believe that He will see us through and He always does, God never fails.

There are so many possibilities out there. So many adventures and  pursuits await each of us. It doesn’t matter how old one is but what matters is the desire and discipline to achieve the set goals. Endless opportunities are available, through one’s connections and through the internet. But which goals are truly worth pursuing? How would you know that what you are aiming for matters at the end? How would you gauge success? What is worth living for?

I constantly think of my life…. since I was in my 20s, I have always dedicated my life to the Lord. Whatever opportunities open up in my life, it was important to me that I seek the Lord’s wisdom about it. But more often than not, I felt unsure whether the Lord wants me to pursue it or it was just my human desire to pursue something. So I will wait for the Lord’s movement in my life and see if how He leads me.

Many years forward, I find myself in the same situation. Still seeking the Lord’s guidance about the work I am currently involved in. I have always believed that the Lord moved in seasons in one’s life and I want to be sensitive to His leading every season. I want to pursue only those opportunities that would matter in eternity. But there are days that I feel stuck and unable to move towards those goals. Unsure if that is where God is leading, I find myself praying and seeking His wisdom once again.

I don’t know if you are in a situation like mine. But today, I want to encourage you that the Lord will answer. He is never too early nor too late. He will lead us as we trust Him and obey His word over our lives. Let us keep seeking Him – wait upon the Lord and His Words will certainly come to pass.