Read This Before You Give Up!

Today is one of those days. When I seriously consider if what I’m doing is helping my child become the person God has called him to be or am I just causing him to go the other way. When questions like “Am I forcing him to be someone he is not? Or do I see that he just needs that extra push? Am I becoming over bearing already?” fills my mind.

What do you do when your 8 year old son seems undecided, not exhibiting perseverance or diligence? When he seems to lack self-confidence whenever he is faced with unfamiliar situations? When these are the very reasons why we are homeschooling our child, because we want him to grow up with the fear of the Lord and so that he can be what God has called him to be. He will be a person of character and integrity.

But I don’t see any of that today.

My first thought was “I give up.” I immediately doubted that homeschooling is working for him. Maybe he needs to deal with it by himself, in a school setting and he might just find himself and his strength, just as I was raised. I felt like waving that white flag on homeschooling and just send him to a private school and not have to deal with these issues anymore.

After calming down, I realize that this is precisely the time NOT TO GIVE UP. These trials and challenges will one day be triumphs as God changes my son’s heart and my heart along the way.  I just need to develop perseverance myself.

Here are lessons I learned today:

I need to pray more and rely on myself less. Commit my son to Jesus and pray that he will grow up and be the man God has called him to be.  Realize that it is beyond my power to change his heart but I can keep praying for him.

I need to be more sensitive about my children’s emotional needs. Homeschooling is not just teaching, explaining and modeling but it is also empathizing with their weakness and  helping them overcome it and seeing their strengths. Now that my children are 8 years and above, parenting is not just about giving instructions and meeting physical needs but there is a whole new dimension that I need to learn especially in being a coach and a mentor as they face new stages in their life.

I need to adjust as every child develops differently. I should never compare the development of one child to the other. Spend more time understanding each child and appreciate them for who they are now and inspire them to become who they can be.

Don’t make decisions when emotions are running high. Most often than not, the decision you will make is not the right one. This is probably an old lesson and one that I already know well. But I just needed to remind myself of this today.

Have you faced similar situations yourself? I’d love to hear from you today.

Thank You God

Dear Lord,
I just want to say thank you.

Thank you God…

… for another year that You have blessed me with..

… for the unfailing love yYu have showered me with..

… for being my best friend and being all that I ever need.

… for my hard-working and loving husband who is always there for me and the kids.

… for the wonderful memories we share  that I will forever cherish in my heart.

… for my sweet and loving daughter who taught me to see beauty in everything.

… for my happy and active son who reminds me to smile,

… for my parents and for all their love and unwavering support.

…. for my sister and for all her help and support.

…. for my brother and all the love.

… for my in-laws and all their love.

… for the church who prays and support.

… for the friends who remembers.

… for the provision that is always on time.

… for the inspiration to write and keep on writing.

… for the opportinities to be a blessing to others.

… for all the new experiences and  new words that I’ve learned.

… for 6 years of blogging and sharing and inspring.

 … for every struggle that makes me become more of who God wants me to be.

… for the grace that sustains me daily.

… for the love that brings meaning to my days.

… for the sunshine that warms my days.

…for the people that inspires and encourages me.

… for the laughter that brightens every moment.

… for the problem that needs to be solved.

… for the purpose and direction of life.

… for the new adventures at hand.

… for  giving us an opportunity to teach our children through homeschooling.

… for the warmth and comfort that our home brings.

… for change which brings growth.

… for the hope that springs eternal.

…. for the faith that perseveres.

… for the peace that goes beyond human understanding.

… for the forgiveness that I don’t deserve.

… for the wisdom that brings direction.

… for Your word rhat enlightens.

… for an abundant and  blessed life in Your presence.

 … for the gift of everlasting life.

Thank you Lord.
I love you.
Christine

I am Getting Older… And the Questions That Go With It

Just a few days ago, I saw 3 strands of white hair. It doesn’t really bother me that I have white hair but it does make reality become undeniable: I AM GETTING OLDER.

 

With that realization, these questions come into mind:

1. Have I done what God wants me to do ?

2. Am I still doing what God wants me to do?  If not, what change should I make?

3. Am I closer to God than before?

4. Am I continuously learning?

5. What else do I want to accomplish for God?

 

Life is short, and with the days that God gives us, we should not take them for granted. As we age, we should number our days and be mindful of how we use the time given to us. Let’s ask these questions and truly reflect on how we want to spend the remaining days of our lives.

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Hospitalized Again for Dengue

After 4 years, I was hospitalized once again for Dengue. I had a low grade fever last weekend and by Monday, I really felt weak and couldn’t eat properly anymore. I had my blood checked and my platelets were already 91. Upon the doctor’s advise, I was admitted to the hospital and had to be confined for the next 5 days. My platelets continued to drop until Wednesday, where the count was now just 29. Thankfully, by Thursday my platelets were finally rising at 35 and on Friday, it was finally 74. Though far from the normal platelet count, I was discharged and rested at home.

This 2nd Dengue episode was far worse than my 1st one in 2010. I am thankful to God for the healing and recovery He has once again given me. I am also thankful for my husband who never left my side and took care of me during this difficult time. For the church who kept praying and took care of my kids while I was away, I will forever be grateful.

In moments like these, I realize that life is fleeting and really beyond our control. It is of utmost importance that with every breath that God gives us, we use it for His glory and be mindful of how we use the life He has given us.

On Those Kind of Days

There are days that I just wonder if I am doing the right thing. Choosing to homeschool the kids rather than sending them to school or getting a job which gives our family additional income. There are days when I think we should take steps of change.

On those kind of days, I choose to pray and seek counsel from the Word of God. God speaks so clearly and most of the time, He encourages and leads me in the way I should go. I just need to pause and be sensitive.

On those kind of days, I also ask those who have gone before me in the road of homeschooling and ask for their advice. Support and knowing that others have been through the same crossroads help me face the choices I need to make.

On those kind of days, I choose not to be selfish but to think of Jesus, and afterwards, I realize that the choices I need to make are those that He would choose since I have surrendered my life to Him.

On those kind of days, I need to be still and trust in Him. Don’t let fear overcome trust and faith in Jesus.